Wednesday, 26 August 2009
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Delighted by Him
Worship is about delighting. Worship is about being filled with God. Worship is driven by the gospel. As I delight in God, I get lost in wonder, awe and praise.
How many conversations have I had in the past sixth months where my friends have told me that their chief desire is to get to know God better this year? The Apostle Paul’s daily habit was to ‘weigh’ the infinite privilege of knowing Christ against every temporal thing this world offers; from earthly security to personal honor and reputation… He refused to know Christ theoretically – Paul could certainly be described as ‘panting after God.’
Course Notes: Part of our problem as believers today is that we have allowed the culture to define ‘normalcy’ of pursuits in this life. We live in a Culture of Immediacy as if it is normal to live for the present without being controlled by eternal hope. WE TEND TO BE RULED BY THE TYRANNY OF THE URGENT.
Worship is a tactic or strategy for knowing God. In it, we are filled and satisfied – “God is most glorified in me when I am most satisfied in Him.” (Piper) I want to ‘pant’ after God. I want my soul to be ravished! This happens as I immerse myself in Christ’s attributes, for it’s there that God’s abstract attributes are on perfect display in Christ! Hebrews 1:3 says that Christ is “the radiance of His glory and the exact representation of His nature.”
I must insert a quotation here from the Course Notes, as it identifies God’s attributes in Christ in eternity: “Consider the centrality of Christ in the sweep of human history – Christ as Logos is Creator. Christ as Lawgiver is the covenant-maker of the O.T. Christ as Lamb is Redeemer of the elect. Christ as Judge is conqueror of the enemies of God and His people. Christ as Lion is eternal King of men and angels.”
So how can I get to know God while so often succumbing to the “tyranny of the urgent?” Well, I must radically alter my lifestyle to resist the tyrant and instead focus my thoughts through meditation.
Meditating upon Scripture means I will have to be SILENT,
with patient concentration, until our thought processes
and affections are captive to the Word of God.
Getting to know God better comes through contemplating Christ’s Saving work. This is a 4-strand of Grace:
1. Who Christ is (supremacy)
2. What Christ has done (atonement)
3. Who we are in Him (union)
4. How we are to live (abiding)
By nature my flesh is incurably ‘religious.’ I am always trying to provide my own atonement/justification. Only the glorious gospel message of grace revealed has the power to take me off of self; off of religiousness; off of self-righteousness; off of self-conscience striving – and into God-intoxicated worship.
The message of grace in Christ cannot coexist with the ‘fig leaves’ we use in an attempt to cover our moral nakedness. The gospel comes claiming that God has taken our salvation out of our hands and placed it into His own hands. It humbles us, devastates us; then it thrills us with the prospect that God wishes to love us, cleanse us, and pour out His kindness upon us for Christ’s sake.
We were created to be in awe of something. If we go along for too long without being in awe of God, we are in trouble... we must be in awe of something else!
CN: We are communing with God when we keep taking Christ for all the reason God gave Him to us. The gospel is NOT designed to ‘jump-start us’ and then abandon us to the impotence of flesh power. No, the promises in the gospel are designed to equip us to ‘live upon Christ’ as He is offered in the gospel. OH! how this answers the quiet desperation of the average Christian who is often mired in self-recrimination, bemoaning his lukewarm-ness, carnality, and unfruitfulness.
We will want to ‘meet’ Him at the gospel promises to learn more of His heart toward us. This is the believer feeding upon Christ – for CHRIST is the bread of heaven; the food of the regenerated soul. (CN)
This last paragraph will wrap it up for today:
Our growing knowledge of the Lord is not merely an academic exercise, nor can it be reduced to an experience. It is actually intensely practical. To grow in the knowledge of the Lord is a rectifying, sanctifying process. It weans us from the world. It gives us a growing desire to mortify indwelling sin and smash all of our heart idols. It shakes us out of our stagnancy and spiritual apathy. It perfects our ability to live as true reflexive, spontaneous worshipers. It convinces us that we are carried by Christ – thus freeing us up to be burdened on behalf of others.
After 3 hours of this last night at class, I was humbled, convicted, and energized! Oh how great the Father’s love for us, how vast beyond all measure! That He should give His only Son, to make a wretch His treasure!
(excerpts are taken from Jay Wegter’s study materials for the Grace-Driven Sanctification class)
Monday, 24 August 2009
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Bible college is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I am so convicted and repentant over what I've been learning, but at the same time I have never felt so much freedom and blessing... Praise God for His boundless Grace!
I am a sinner of the very worst kind. I choose so often to worship and serve my own cravings and desire, setting myself up as god.
I can do no good of myself.
BUT God has shown in my heart to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of JESUS CHRIST (2 Cor. 4:6)!
God has performed a miracle: planting me in Christ and securing Christ in me.
This makes me a child of God... this means that I have been blessed with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places... God chose me to be holy and blameless before Him. I now possess the spotless reputation of Jesus Christ (Eph.1).
As grace extends to more and more people, it increases Thanksgiving, bringing glory to God (2 Cor. 4:15).
I am learning to Preach the gospel to myself on a daily basis, relieving me of the burden of
Performing, and instead Motivating me to exert myself out of gratitude.
I pray for myself and all other believers that we might just BEGIN to comprehend the RICHES we have in Christ! Paul prays this prayer in Ephesians 3, asking God that the believers might have the spiritual strength to receive Christ's love. God is just WAITING to DUMP on us His love and His glory... but our hearts are too small to receive all that He wants to give. God is in the process of enlarging our hearts to slowly prepare us for the magnitude of His glory that we will receive in heaven.
Ephesians 3:14-21For this reason I bow my knees before the Father,
from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named,
that according to the RICHES OF HIS GLORY he may grant
you to be Strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being,
so that Christ may Dwell in your hearts through faith -
that you, being rooted and grounded in love,
may have the STRENGTH TO COMPREHEND with all the saints
what is the Breadth and Length and Height and Depth,
and to KNOW THE LOVE OF CHRIST that surpasses Knowledge,
that you may be filled with all the FULLNESS OF GOD!!!!!
Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think,
according to the power at work within us,
to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations,
forever and ever, Amen.
I don't live a normal life. I am as abnormal as they come. I am redeemed!!! -
Speak O Lord
Speak O Lord as we come to You
to receive the food of Your Holy Word.
Take Your Truth, plant it deep in us
Shape and fashion us in Your likeness-
That the light of Christ might be seen today
in our acts of love and our deeds of faith
Speak O Lord and fulfill in us
all Your purposes for Your glory
Teach us Lord full obedience
Holy reverence, true humility.
Test our thoughts and our attitudes
in the radiance of Your purity.
Cause our faith to rise, cause our eyes to see
Your majestic love and authority
Words of power that can never fail
Let their truth prevail over unbelief
Speak O Lord and renew our minds
Help us grasp the heights of Your plans for us.
Truths unchanged from the dawn of time
that will echo down through eternity
And by grace we'll stand on your promises
And by faith we'll walk as You walk with us
Speak O Lord till Your church is built
and the earth is filled with Your glory
Getty song at church
Thursday, 06 August 2009
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I've been realizing lately that I don't fit into the mold that I've held as the Ideal. And that's okay. I know God has made me to be just what He wants me to be (except for the personal sin part) and if I'm different from my role models I ought to glorify God for who I am in Him... Here's some things I've been learning:
Methodical
I'm so much more of a Homebody than I ever realized. I love family nights and times when there's NOTHING on the schedule :) Even though I really enjoy people and would go crazy without social hang-outs, I thrive on more "home time." A lot of the women I look up to are big Accomplishers. They can multi-task like crazy and are involved in ministry upon ministry. I don't think I'm capable of that... so I want to purpose to do with all of my heart and energy whatever it is that God enables me to do. I do things slowly, thoughtfully, and with a routine, and that's okay.
Encourager
I'm finding that being a submissive, supportive, and respectful wife is all for the purpose of being an Encourager to my husband. It's a call to give out energy in order to instill energy in my husband! I'm talking about "A word fitly spoken [it's] like apples of gold in a setting of silver." I can beautifully adorn my husband as I choose words that are uplifting and wise. That also reminds me of the Proverbs 31 woman... "She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue."
"I'm a Believer..."
lol I'm also learning to quit trying to read between the lines of what people say and just take them at their word! If someone says something, I'm to simply believe what they say. It's their problem if they're trying to throw in a hidden meaning. I guess I've been a sucker for manipulation of that kind.
Pillars of Pride
Ah yes... back to pride. It's like a thorn in the flesh that feels way too good! Lately God has been taking a bulldozer to my pillars of pride. It's made a lot of rubble. The more I've seen my sin, the more I've sinned. I have to admit that several weeks ago there was a massive war between God and I as He began showing me the pride in my life and then started tearing it down. I'm sure my sweet husband had to bear the brunt of it :( But now that some of my deepest heart motivations have been exposed there has been a lot of sweet intimacy between the Lord and me. God's grace motivates me to set myself aside and live for His glory. Praise the Lord for Christ's redemptive work!
Greenie
Okay, I admit it :) I took my own plastic bags grocery shopping yesterday AND I bought Edamame pods (soybeans)... AND I bought Tofu!! lol I am laughing out loud and turning red as I type this! I've been sticking to a pretty strict health plan in order to help John in his dieting. Lots and lots of fresh vegetables, fish, only whole grains, and healthy fats and oils. It's been a lot of fun really :) I just love cooking healthfully. We have a salad with chicken/tuna/or talapia for at least one meal a day and for breakfast we have oatmeal, eggs, a high protein smoothie, or some kind of bran cereal from Trader Joe's.
John just got home from his discipleship group... Yay to see him for a bit before he heads off to work!
Tuesday, 26 May 2009
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Yesterday I made hummus for the first time. It turned out really good... NOT what I was expecting :) I'm going to miss being in a kitchen when we're in Israel. I think I can persuade the kitchen staff to let me help a little though... I'm contemplating which recipes to take with me :)
The BBQ was a hit Saturday night. It was mostly believers who stuck around and hung out, but there were maybe seven others who showed up for either 5 minutes or the whole 5 hours. I got to meet Sandra... she doesn't speak a speck of English and mi espanol needs a lot of work :) The evening was a big encouragement to a lot of people though. One family has a 3-4 month old who has crazy medical problems... they're gone a lot, and nobody really knows them. They were there the whole time and said they were really blessed by it and that it should be a monthly occurance. Their baby, Darby, is going in for some major surgery (implanting a drain from brain to abdomen) any day now, as soon as they get the call.
My friend Jennifer is moving... if I think about it too much I'll cry. She and Toby are buying a house only 5 minutes away. They invited us over last night for fajitas and basketball... she commented that she's really needed to read in the Bible... she is not a believer and we spent one morning a couple of weeks ago going over point #1 of the gospel: Who is God? She loved it, but now her schedule has gotten crazy again... please pray for her salvation! She is one of my very good friends. We love talking about healthy food and new recipes and Green things :) lol she is VERY green while I'm just a little Green. hahaha
Johny's home for lunch, got to go!
Saturday, 21 March 2009
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If I had the time and talent, I'd turn this into a Food Blog.
We love eating as healthy and fresh as possible... doing the best we can without any kind of garden, on a tight budget, and with little to no time for cooking :)
Tonight we're having Cumin Brown Rice with Black Bean Salsa. I took a picture of the salsa and I'll try to remember to let y'all know how it tastes :)
Yesterday I finally had the opportunity to make my mom's Cinnamon Granola recipe again.
We've been out for weeks. We're trying to stick to homemade granola and oatmeal/cream-of-wheat when it comes to breakfast cereals. It can be tough making the time to fix hot cereal when you're rushing out the door though.
Friday, 06 February 2009
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Granola
I ate cinnamon granola for breakfast. mom's recipe. And it's raining... what a lovely morning!
I'm up doing homework... it seems never ending right now :) I've gotten up early all week just to do homework (between 6:00-7:00am). Right now I am reading a book called "Created in God's Image" for my theology class. Then I have a Music Theory quiz. That'll be pretty intense and I should start working on that soon. Other than that, I have to read a book and write a report on it, study for a Theology Exam, begin & finish a take-home test for Music History, and read Philippians thoughtfully several times, writing notes as I go.
People: LOVE JESUS!!!
My heart is breaking for some of my old friends who aren't living committed lives to Christ... and for my neighbors who don't know Jesus as Savior yet. And for the young mommies who are allowed and encouraged to kill their unborn babies. And for people without friends, social groups, family, who are so alone and need their Christian neighbors to befriend them and share JESUS with them!
-Oh Lord! Break my heart for the lost every day! Develop such compassion and humility and fervent love in me for those who don't know You or worship You as their Creator!
Sunday, 01 February 2009
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*but i do now!
wish i had time to post... but i don't.
*edit*
FOOTBALL
Superbowl with the neighbors... sometimes I feel like I'm walking on eggshells. Do I refer to him as your boyfriend, husband, or his name? Do I refer to you as his girlfriend, wife, or your name? Is it awkward when I talk to your daughter and she wants to know if he really is my husband? I want you to know Jesus!!
MORNING
We've been getting up early. Sundays are our only sleep-in day. This morning he woke me up at 6:45. We took our time getting up then went to Starbucks and took our theology books and read for a couple hours... a great combo of focusing on the Lord and getting homework done :) Church was amazing as always. Fantastic authentic praising the Lord and God-focused, life-altering sermon. Afterward our lunch plans with friends took us to Chipotle. My first time and I've been dying to go for quite a while now. Good food. Kinda pricey.
OAK MANOR
We are developing into an incredibly social apartment complex. All the doors face each other with a courtyard in the center. I sat on a stool in the sun while he went on a 14-mile bike ride.
A and J (adorable neighbor kids whom I love) were riding bikes and picking leaves.
A.J. (his real name) came over for ice in his smoothie.
Toby asked if he wanted to come over and watch the game.
Jenn asked if we wanted to go to her mom's
Luke poked his head out
Johny and Jenny mentioned cookies and milk... and celebrating J. Mac's 40 yrs in the pulpit
A.J. and Luke meandered off to a party and J. Mac's celebration
A, J, and 3 other lil latina girls ride bikes and play house
He gets back from his ride
Cindi comes over and invites me to lunch on thursday
Toby, Jenn, Gunner, Cindi, Phillippe, Salome, John, and I watch the game/chat for 20 minutes
Us girls spot a tennis ball in the palm tree and use our flip-flops to get it down
Diana leaves for Phantom of the Opera with her new boyfriend
.... it never ends :)
AHORA
It's 9:35 and I'm ready for bed... tomorrow before school I'd like to practice my violin, clean up a small set of drawers he got for free at a garage sale, and do a little mending. I have some studying of Philippians to do which will be delightful! I am now an ESV fan and am officially changing the version of Bible that I use. It requires a trip to the Christian Family Bookstore... I can hardly wait! God's Word seems to come alive and I don't have to read a passage 5x before comprehending what the author is trying to communicate. It's one of the most accurate versions out there. Most of my profs are using it now... it's fairly new.
Monday, 26 January 2009
Tuesday, 20 January 2009
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There's just something about good speakers
Audio Adrenaline is floating around the room through John's old-but-fantastic Bose speakers... it sounds Great.
School has started...
and I still mopped my floor on my hands and knees today - it took me 1 hour.
and I've practiced my violin for a couple days in a row already... now THATS a good feeling!
and we're still eating healthy home-cooked meals!
and I am excited about living each day for the Lord.
and my husband and I continue to improve our communication skills :) lol
-- It feels great to still be enjoying life at home getting stuff done AND be in school!
Tonight it's a Wal-Mart/99Cent Store run and Homework.
Much love to Yesi, Kimberly, Jenni, Kari, Nicole, Karla -- my mother-to-be friends!! I think of you often!
*---- being in school contributes greatly to my time on xanga :)
Wal-Mart was great- even found some black paint to touch up my 1950's foil/papertowel/napkin dispenser!
99Cent store is where I get most of my produce. Tonight I looked in my 'fridge and smiled: broccoli, celery, mixed greens, spinach, bellpepper, onion, zucchini, tomatoes, lemons, blueberries, blackberries, kiwi... and on the counter: pears, apples, oranges, and more lemons :)
Our favorite salad dressing consists of fresh lemon juice, olive oil, and fresh ground seasalt and peppercorns. You just squeeze your lemon on your salad, add a drizzle of olive oil, and spices! It's the best salad dressing ever and not at all bad for you.
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